I May Be At This Awhile

I had a feeling
of wanting to move
to run
to shout at the ground
that would not move

it did not answer

looked up at the stars
and explained to them
what I was after

they did not respond

went to the roof
and shook my fist
at the night sky
screamed until my voice
fell to the sidewalk

the universe
did not care

I sat down
closed my eyes
and was silent

vowing to stay
until the senseless
makes sense
until the feeling to run
out of my own skin
subsides

I am silent
still

(D James)

The Question Is: Do You Want To Go Forward Or Backward? (The Choice Is Yours)

asking why
leads backwards

as in “why did you do that?”

why asks for excuses
reasons
justification of the past

asking what
looks forward

as in “what will you do with that?”

what asks to create
is curious
and wants nothing more
than for something to be expressed

(D James)

Being You

they said
be careful
don’t get hurt

you didn’t listen

they said
it’s too risky
you’ll be sorry

you didn’t listen

they said
things they didn’t even believe
to keep you close, keep you in place, “don’t leave”

you didn’t listen then
and you still won’t now

so let them say
what they will

and you keep being you

(D James)

final destination

assumptions made
plans set
though no one
told you

the day arrives
car all packed
you ride off
not knowing
where you’re going

the road stretches on
for years

stopping occasionally
in one town or the other

you sometimes wonder
how you will know
when you’ve arrived

(D. James)

waiting out winter

once more
the low sky fills
with gray tones

the trees seem
as dead spiders

and all waits
the coming storm

the last of winter
holding fast

the past week’s
glimpse of spring
caressed our spirits

so we’ll make use of
today

finding the summer
in our hearts

for it is not yet
outside the window

(D. James)